Ultimate Desire

Beautiful to just reside,

In some place at countryside

A jungle full of dry leaves

Soundless whimpers which receives

Pondering over the mountain grass

Let the wind flawless pass

Dipping hand in the country stream

Endless let the clouds scream

Drowsy evening warm to get

Spectrum horizon red sunset

Luminous stars and the sky so dark

Bright moonlight and the twinkling spark

Silent calm soothing night

Wooden cottage candle light

Away the world and the wants

Pains heartbreaks all enchants

Away the hypocrite mass

Just a life and solitary merry lass… 

Norman Bates.... And what is next...???

Norman Bates was completely under his mother’s influence. His mother Norma Bates taught him that being a woman is a sin but she herself is the holiest woman. She taught him to hate all women on the planet. He loved her mother dearly but hated every female except her. Not to be mentioned that Norma Bates had turned psycho due to unsuccessful love and Norman Bates inherited this psychotic nature from his mother. Later Norma found a man who loved her truly. Her mind changed but this relation was not welcomed by the teenager Norman. One day he murdered both of them but guilt overpowered him. He burnt his Step Dad’s corpse but preserved his mother’s and assumed that she couldn’t die. Norma was a strong woman and Norman couldn’t believe that she died of his hands.

From here the bloody game started…

Norman never believed that his mother was dead. And he always remembered what she had told him about other women. Thereafter, dramatically a serial murder of females started in the city. A woman dressed in long robe with a knife in her hands would plunge the dagger bringing the captive to death. The police went on heels but never found that woman. Connecting the links, it was discovered that all women murdered, happened to be either Norman’s girlfriends or acquaintances. Norman was arrested and he gave his statement that it was actually his mother who was doing all this murders. He told the police that every night his mother’s spirit leaves her body and enters his and commits all the murders. Norman was diagnosed as a victim of DISSOCIATIVE IDENTITY DISORDER. He was mentally ill and assumed that actually his soul was under his dead mother’s dominance who directed all the murders. Norman was jailed and sent to mental hospital. But he escaped thrice from the mental hospital and twice from the jail. The concept of escape via toilet or gutter was first seen in the case of Norman Bates. Later he was spotted outside city and the police preferred to encounter him rather than arresting that enemy of women…

Robert Bloch, the creator of Norman Bates, came forward to declare it a complete fiction when the women had developed a dead fear for handsome guys. Norman Bates was deadly handsome and charming. He was soft-spoken and cool minded. He used his nature to lure women and then bring them to death. Norman Bates is considered one of the deadliest devils after Dracula. However, Dracula being a vampire was assumed a myth by one and all but Norman Bates was never understood the same. Norman Bates inspired a number of movies and stories. He is considered to be the first psycho killer of fiction world. Many characters of Indian Cinema were inspired from Norman Bates. Rahul Mehra, the central character of the movie Darr played by Shahrukh Khan was highly inspired by Norman Bates. Exception only coming the way was the motive of love and grudge. In the movie, the motive was psychotic love unlike the grudge of Norman Bates. The role played by Kajol in the movie Gupt was more or less similar. The escape from jail via gutters also came from Norman Bates’ unmatchable mind. Norman Bates was the man who created terror amongst women. No matter how many declarations Robert Bloch made to clarify the fictional existence of Norman Bates, it is still considered that Norman Bates lived once, the name being different.

It is still a question whether Norman Bates was actually fiction….????

I discovered all these facts while I was doing some research for the villain of my novel “The Untrodden Ways”. I had to make the villain deadliest of all. And I can say now, that Indian fiction has not seen any such psycho villain as mine, recently. In case of Norman Bates, the grudge was against females, in case of “The Untrodden Ways”, the grudge is against scientists…

My latest novel "The Untrodden Ways"

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The Untrodden Ways

Expectations and beyond...

Nothing is heavier than the loads of expectations. The load not only gives an everlasting pain inside your head but also an incurable ache to your conscience. The biggest problem with the load of expectation is its ever increasing nature. Loads of expectations never decrease. The more you fulfill the expectations, the more they increase and that too fiercely. It doesn’t matter whether your skills grow in that ratio or not, expectations keep increasing time by time and simultaneously your worth also decreases. When you start fulfilling the expectations, you don’t understand that your worth and value had already been crushed or forgotten. The expectations increase only when you are taken for granted… You are taken for granted and are expected to fulfill the expectations without any sign of a sigh and when you try to give them a sense of your worth, you are likely to be termed arrogant or haughty. You can also be termed careless, irresponsible or attention seeker. There also comes a pathetic situation when you crush all your dreams, desires, hopes and all the peace and tranquility of your mind and heart to fulfill the expectations and even after that, you are questioned back, “What have you done for us….?”

       

                     

The pain of being a victim of expectations gradually makes you aware of the very little expectations you have from others, yes the same ones who never think twice before accusing you for being careless for not fulfilling their expectations. You start feeling that expectations you have from others, might also be giving them the same pain. You withdraw your expectations gradually. You start finding bliss in giving only, never expecting anything in return… not even a word of praise or gratefulness…. You disconnect yourself from others…. The presence of your mind is felt in the world but the peace of your mind keeps wandering restlessly…. You know and understand that the world remembers you only for your utility…. But still you find that after your countless efforts of fulfilling the expectations, you are unable to please others…. Then, you withdraw yourself inside your shell…. You draw a circumference around your shell, never allowing anybody to cross that….  You feel happy inside…. You discover your bliss…

You make the shell rock hard protecting yourself inside, so that even if anybody crosses your circumference and comes closer, you could be termed arrogant and rude being inside the shell and never coming out. But you don’t care because you know that the one who crossed the circumference and cursed you for not coming out the shell, had his own expectations…. But bearing the curses you feel happy inside because you know that you have already expectations to fulfill and you know that nobody is going to cross the circumference with a desire to give instead of a desire to take… and nobody has the genuine guts to break the shell and take you out… before you rot inside….

To whom I may concern....

The reward of my writing I got from my colleagues is now I write and type almost all official letters. Few weeks ago, it was one of such days, when I was typing an official letter. While I was re-reading it for editing I figured that I had done a mistake with the header of the letter – “TO WHOM IT MAY CONCERN”

I had left the letter ‘T’ by mistake and now it read, “TO WHOM I MAY CONCERN”

Whole sentence caught not only my eyes and attention but also my thoughts and sub-conscious mind. It somewhat echoed inside my brains – “To whom I may concern…..????”

All of us know the meaning of the above mentioned sentence. It is meant for the addressee. That the letter being sent is whole his/her responsibility and the content inside the letter matter to them and deserve their prior concern. Once the sender sends the letter, his concerns end right there and then the addressee’s concerns arise.

As I read my mistaken line, I felt myself like similar letter. But in my case, - “To whom I may concern” is not a header. It is rather a question. The answer yet to be discovered.

What are the contents in my case? My nature, my behavior, my anger, my cares, my affection and every that little thing good or bad I possess. To whom these may concern?

My book got fame. I got name. Whenever I look around myself, I come across thousands of people who are ‘interested’ in me. But not a single person ‘concerned’ to me. A lot of people are there who will willingly raise their hands up to take the credit of my success, but not a single person to hold my hand amongst my failure. A few acquaintances call me crazy for the immense planning I do before beginning any new thing. I do not feel the necessity to reply them. But if there is any reason, then it only is, that failure could make me weaker in spite of all the promises made to me during my success season. Whenever I think about anyone concerned to me, a void comes to my thoughts…

Generally you walk fast when you have to travel all alone. You know that nobody is there for your company and thus your destination gets your prime focus rather than the pleasures and enjoyments of the ways….

I never found happiness. I always created it. I never ran after laughter. Instead, I created moments to laugh. Because I know that till date, it is only myself to whom I may concern….

Unfortunately, I had taken the print out of that mistaken mistyped letter and thinking not to waste it, I had kept it in my purse for some use in future. Few minutes ago, I was looking for my pocket diary in which I had written an important scene of my second novel. I always keep this diary in my purse and as I was hunting through my purse, this piece of paper came across my hands.

Life is all about being concerned. It is most probable that in near future, in such a similar case, somebody would willingly replace the word ‘whom’ with ‘Sneha’ but I don’t know whether I would ever come across any such moment or not!

I think it is my first blog where I have opened my heart to this extent.

With my downed eyes, I am reading that mistaken header which appears as a question mark to me – “TO WHOM I MAY CONCERN…?”

Moon and I

The best part of my day starts when I come home from office. And the magical moments begin when after having dinner, I come to my study room. There are large windows in my study room which create magical path for the moonlight to enter my room. And I, sitting beside the windows, watch the moon. We talk endlessly. Sometimes, moon shifts its position from my continuous gaze to give me the clue pf the nearing dawn, so that I could have the amount of necessary sleep as per suits of my biological clock. Otherwise, my eyes refuse even to wink and lose the sight of moon for that much moment. Losing the sight of the moon could not be acceptable that easily.

Moon and I share good compatibility. Several hours we spend talking to each other. Several speechless talks... Moon also loves the night and me too... Moon was also afraid of loneliness very much and me too... But later, moon also developed affinity for this loneliness and me too... Moon sings the songs composed by the clouds. Wind makes the lyrics. Moon loves music and me too... 
Everynight, it seems as if moon covers the same path in the sky. But actually, moon is on a never ending journey. A journey which goes through new hopes every night. A journey beyond the clouds, beyond the sky, beyond the universe. Is this journey actually a search for someone? Moon doesn't reply. Neither do I...

 

Few words to share...

I was extremely disturbed last week. I blocked all the connection. I remained alone for the maximum time. I kept myself shut in my room and didn’t allow anybody to come inside. A few friends called, but I didn’t pick up my phone. I just wanted to be alone. By the end, I understood what had disturbed me that much.

Life and worries are synonym to each other. But shall we really waste our life in just worrying about everything? We get life only once. And here comes the point. I always believe that we deserve the right to live life to the fullest if we fulfill our responsibilities. And I myself have discovered some simple tips which could add extra joy to our life and make it more enjoyable than ever. So, sharing some of them with you.

1.       Get a job and balance your earnings. It is very important. You cannot always enjoy your life on your Dad’s money. Spending self-earned money just makes a way towards the bliss of life. It is quite possible that you may not get enough time to enjoy. But then, do your job like a master, not like a slave. Give importance to yourself.

2.       Make friends and enjoy with them. First and foremost – friends always add your joys. Make as many friends as you can. Make big large circle of friends. But then, sort out such friends among them, whom you love to hang out with. Plan a trip. Do what you always want to do. Watch a movie together. Never miss a chance to add some memorable moments of life. But make sure, you find friends worth being called a friend.

3.       Go crazy. You need not always be perfect. Remember the story of “Perfect Princesses”?  Sometimes perfection may cost your happiness. You need not always be perfect, idealistic or ethical. Play pranks. Tease some friend. Shout, sing, dance [even if you are a bathroom singer, consider yourself no less than anybody else]. Explore something unexplored. Do something unexpected. No matter how the person next thinks. Just go crazy sometimes.

4.       Be adventurous. Do something adventurous. Visit some unvisited places. If you think like doing something then just do it. Try to figure out adventure in every little thing you do. In my case, I make even my regular job adventurous. Whenever I do cleaning in my house, I just consider the broom the mighty sword of King Arthur and the dust around, nothing but the small mischievous imps. And whenever I clean the roof, I consider it an attack of tyrannosaurs which I have to destroy. It simply depends how you think and how you make it. Even the simple cooking can be like a victory over Troy. [Now I know what you are thinking about me – girl with broom !!! ha ha ha] 

5.       Be friendly and trustworthy with your parents. No adventure or craziness of yours can make a sense if you are not friendly and trustworthy with your parents. Remember that they are only your parents whom you can trust unconditionally and after doing all the mistakes, you can go back and expect the things to get amended just after a sorry. Plan some surprise party exclusively for your parents. Call their old friends for a get-together. Plan a religious trip and most important, never fail to praise your parents for whatever they did for you.

6.       Give surprises to siblings. Don’t forget to care for the sweetest relation of life. Tease them, pull their legs, organize occasional fights and if nothing then just keep shouting around. Don’t forget to impose your authority quite often. And by the end of the day, buy a beautiful surprise gift for them.

7.       Keep yourself away from time-pass affairs because such things not only cost your money and attention but also the most precious thing of life- time!

8.       Go for the one you love to talk with. Always prefer to such a life partner with whom you can have good conversation. Lack of conversation has been a reason for the failure of relations. Don’t hesitate to think about the one with whom you love to talk a lot. It is better if you ignore the physical appearance because it is the thing which fades with time.

9.       Jump, dance and sing around if you discover that you have started liking someone. Celebrate it. Very few people are so lucky and do be proud of yourself if you become one of them. And then, start conspiring to get him/her. Do whatever you can do to give a clue of your feelings. Don’t give up and at such time, don’t be too rationale. Just give up practicality and go crazy. Don’t give yourself a reason to mourn in future that “Had I taken that decision….” Don’t make any space for a “Kaash…” in your life. A ship is safe at harbor but it is not made for that. Enjoy the storms. Be daring enough to propose and mean whatever you say. Trust yourself and keep in your mind what Paulo Coelho has said – when you desire for something [or someone] whole-heartedly, whole world conspires to get it for you. At this stage, your friendly and trustworthy relation with your parents will help you a lot to gain that relation which could be no less than a wonderful achievement. Nothing is impossible in this world of IT Revolution and nothing is mightier than a man’s will.

10. Maintain the balance between friendship and love. I often come across such posts across facebook stating “Aaj phir pyar dosti se haar gaya..” etc etc.  I just laugh at such stupid silly things. Comparing love and friendship is just like comparing your right eye with your left eye. Nothing is more ridiculous than intermingling love with friendship and Friendship with love. None of the two can substitute the other. Love is such a strange relation in which the lesser time you spend together, the stronger the bond becomes. Friendship on the contrary, demands enough time together. The Two are complementary to each other.

11.  Get a camera and click every precious moment of your life. Make a collage. Save it either in your computer or your album. They will make the most precious memories alive.

12. Don’t ever bother about just every person. If your parents are happy with you, if your friends laugh with you, if your siblings love you and most important -if your love understands you then, you need not bother about anybody else. You cannot please everybody. Just care for the people concerned to you. Just live your life the way you love.

13. And last but not the least. Give up pretension. Don’t try to impress anybody. Just be yourself. It is all okay if you have several faults, if you are not that perfect. Just be yourself. Because it is important to get such people around you who love you as a whole. Be loyal in all your relations!

You might be thinking why I am giving such lecture! Actually, I just wanted to share my views about life and how we live it and how we make it. Some of the points may seem childish but we know how much a child  treasures happiness. The ultimate goal of all our efforts in life is only and only happiness. Then why shouldn’t we live our life such a way that we encounter happiness at every step of life! Because we get life only once!